I wish that I had taken the initiative to stand up for my intentions earlier.
Live and learn, and I am learning.
I am now standing up for my objectives.
MADT Fest Reception.
I feel that my project has been a ?success?
Even though I have no finished piece of music, as of yet, I have gathered a series of recordings and made connections to individuals intent on production in the future.
Travers is very interested in the process and hopefully will become someone to produce music with.
I will track more recordings tomorrow and will take a moment to iron out a foundation for a final track.
My head hurts.
I feel very disheartened.
I had a great meeting a couple days ago, and have had strong and positive reception to ideas I have brought forth to numerous individuals, but I feel very deflated.
My health probably plays a large role in this feeling.
Diet.
Sleep.
Exercise.
{lack of these things}
Time must also be a large factor.
I am in a ritual period of transition.
A liminal period.
My biggest question at the moment is:
What is success?
How can one's learning be truly evaluated?
Why does grading feel so degrading?
What happens when success is dependent upon the failure of the old evaluation system?
Kara brought up a point of wonder yesterday.
Why focus on the "great white men" and the ideas they had, when you're looking to actually focus on improving the quality of life that was destroyed due to their ideas?
These "great men" perpetuated ideals that enslave many, negated equality and are being taught as a model to emulate.
Time to redraw the map to my ?success? for I seem to have lost touch with my practice.
Success my son is believing that what you have accomplished so far is the best that you could do given you knowledge of the situations up to and including now.
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